"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."- Marilyn Monroe

boredom will be the death of me.

current emotion: i dont even know.

my birthday is coming up ; august 16th.
i’ll be 15.
i dont wanna be 15.
i wanna go back to when i was 5. when i had no cares. when the worst pain i could feel was a skinned knee. when i believed in santa &+ the tooth fairy.  

i dont really know if im completely satisfied with who i am.
torrey and lukas tell me how pretty and funny i am. and how i make them happy. and how im a really good person.
my mom tells me that im the smartest, prettiest, most caring person she knows, and shes lucky to know me. and that she would feel the same way even if i wasnt her daughter. well, thats what moms are supposed to say.
my real dad: still no were to be found.
my step-dad: dont know were he is either.
im gunna be a sophmore in high school, and i still dont know my true identidy.
but, do i really need to know my true identidy right now? i dont know, maybe im crazy. probably am. but whatever.

school starts in 14 days. im absolutley not ready for that. im not ready for more drama quite yet. im not ready to be responsible again. im not ready to get up at 6am every morning. im not ready to be constantly bugged at by my mom about my grades. im just, not in the mood for it yet.

things coming up:
saturday, august 7th.: haneen &+ brahuums party.
sunday, august 8th.: maybe going shopping with torrey.
tuesday, august 10th.: getting my schedule, &+ birthday party.
saturday, august 14th-monday, august 16th.: wisconsin with grandma?
sunday, august 15th.: creed concert?
monday, august 16th.: birthday.
wednesday, august 19th.: first day of school.


waking up on christmas morning at 4am, and going downstairs to find atleast 30 gifts there.